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Baby leave the light on for me....
Posted by Kate
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2:43 AM
I've done it. The hard part at least. I'm 200km away from my baby boy and life seems different.
With all the kids heading off to school and kinder this week, it seems a good week for firsts. My little boy is growing up and is gradually getting a life that is separate to mine. I still struggle to remember that H will like things that differ to me (even though he tells us in no uncertain terms), so just cause I hate a food, doesn't mean he will and vice versa. I struggle to remember that with the cat though who always seems to end up with foods in the salmon and duck range, rather than jellied pilchards and liver.
I have to keep telling myself that I am at work tonight to make our life better, but it's hard when all I can think about is how long it is until I can give my little man a big "squeezle". Leaving the house today was hard. While realistically I know that I haven't given him less time and attention than I would on other work days, it feels different when that time is overnight and if he needs me, I won't be there.
We had a big play this morning, with lots of stories and slides and a ride on the toy horse at the shops. My little man loves being "side" (outside) and the cooler weather was lovely to be out in.
With all the kids heading off to school and kinder this week, it seems a good week for firsts. My little boy is growing up and is gradually getting a life that is separate to mine. I still struggle to remember that H will like things that differ to me (even though he tells us in no uncertain terms), so just cause I hate a food, doesn't mean he will and vice versa. I struggle to remember that with the cat though who always seems to end up with foods in the salmon and duck range, rather than jellied pilchards and liver.
I have to keep telling myself that I am at work tonight to make our life better, but it's hard when all I can think about is how long it is until I can give my little man a big "squeezle". Leaving the house today was hard. While realistically I know that I haven't given him less time and attention than I would on other work days, it feels different when that time is overnight and if he needs me, I won't be there.
Not all about being away is bad though. This is my feb photo of the day for today - "Dinner". I love nothing more than kicking back in my hotel room and watching bad tv, having a bath without having to remove ducks and turtles first and I am looking forward to having a bed all to myself with a quiet coffee to start the day. The scenery here is beautiful with towering birch trees and willows weeping over the edges of a stream. Nearly enough to distract me from where I am.
Enough writing for today though, as the lump in my throat is threatening to overwhelm me. Who'd have thought that I'd be sentimental :-). I guess it's just the fact that although this is the first time we are apart, it probably won't be the last....
Good night until tomorrow Ham man, Love you bigger than a squeezle!
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